[nex's entry to them]

darkness engulfs, white light blinds;
deafening slience, abyssal screams.
tracherous ember slashes the weary soul,
through hope and courage resurrect the falling will.

in time of weary, he draws strength from his surrounding. encouragement and little gestures ignite his determination, pathing the road for him to carry on.

guess life would be much tougher without you guys during the period of a's. encouragement and little gesture did make the period less tormenting. every moment after that is worth anticipating.

thanks for my beloved rendevous, irene, to be the first to msg me good luck for the exams. we're the first to start. guess it's always hard to pioneer, but someone have to do it. thanks for making every moment in school such lovely time, and every cl'a lecture so endurable.

thanks to my most beloved vice-pres, kimberly, u came in second. it's enjoyable working with u, though u keep using me as ur shielf to block off pple u didnt wan to see. still it's fun. remember the days of byg, and we pull it through. guess we also pull it through now. not easy, but we survive!

yinghan, i'm most surprize to recieve your msg. though we hardy talk, it's still surprizing to recieve ur warm wishes.

most beloved sum, wanteng. always sending me songs and programmes. kinda feel bad for exploiting u. but thanks for remembering the first day to my paper and sending me the luck!cca seems less fun without u, gotta meet up before my enlistment.

moi favourite jr secretary, tian tian. guess as far as it concern, the name suits the personality. always excited to see me. it does make my day in school. remember, no matter how much pple like to make fun, always stand up pround to ur name cause u got really beautiful name. thanks for the encouragement given to me during the period. it helps alot.

sailormoon, wanying, always calling me that stupid nick in school. sounds weird but it kinda make the boring lessons we shared interesting. it's never a dull moment with u and evonne around. thanks for adding tinge of color into the monochromed period of examination.

choyqueen, always imposed her house. thanks for the encouragement you give and as well as remembering the date to my first paper. havent seen you for aeons and ya will meet u before my enlistment. gotta go back to majong, kbox and of course, pictionary. well, prepare to lose when i have my ultimate partner with me. muhahaZ!

thanks khai for ur endless msg of encouragement during this period. guess you would be studying for ur 4 papers to come as i'm typing this. but well, u can do it. seriously, remember ur wish for aaab? hahaZ guess it shouldnt be a prob to ya. trust me and trust yourself. finally, toodles!

qinnan. what can i say? always saying i'm the one who love him the most, but too bad my heart is always with sianmeng and the rest. how? nonetheless, i'm polygamous. give that little bit to you. thanks for your cookies and cakes all these while, thought they are "rejects". still we enjoyed them. com'on bake more, bake more. *slup slup*

it's not surprizing for andri to msg, and of course it's not taken for granted.i know it's hard to perform while carrying the burden other imposed upon. but you'll do just fine.every effort you have had put in during this 2 yrs aint going down the drain. you'll know when time to come. like u said, you have fought a good fight, you have finished the race.

anqi!!! thanks for listening to my whines and stuff.and of course, digging for ur past yr paper whe i called in the middle of yhe night. havent got time to meet you just yet. but it'll come. at this point you'll be studying for exams. so we'll meet after that which is on the 28th if i'm not wrong. my slot will be reserve for you and queen. so miss you guys much. we'll meet up as soon after u guys finished thy exams.

ah wee, mr ng. thanks god he's not reading this. well thanks for his teaching and encouragement during the course of two yrs. guess it's where i acquire all the soft skills from. hope i aint letting him down.

beloved hi-5, jon. always driving us around and scarifying his sleeping time. jester within the group. when things get rough, and a smile and joke dont work, remember you still have us, hi-5. silience company is what we can assure you. -smile-

beloved hi-5, ee. u witnessed my movement through the threshold and support me. we seem to have less common topics nowadays but guess the understanding is still there. thanks for the encouragement all these while.

beloved hi-5, wenz. thanks for all the songs and sharing part of you uni life with us. exams are over now and it's time to party. results are not out yet so it's not finalised. remember, when thing has yet to materialise, it's not consider as a problem. dun carry tml's possibility as today's burden. you seriously dont need it.

beloved hi-5, ed. thanks for all you advices and encouragement before my exams. guess it's hard for you to lie, but thanks for trying to boost my moral. it a way, it does work. thanks for everything.

junni sent in after the first paper. guess the msg is kinda for him, and "by the way" for us. but thanks anyway. thanks for sharing his part of life and making him smile. it's less worrying for us that way. be strong and confident, your effort will pay off in one way or another. you have a sweet smile. so do that often.

always amazed me with his skill in photo capturing and editing. thanks mark for your well wishes and encouragement. well hope the uncle's advices do help you in a way or so. remember, take things with a pinch of salt does make life tastier. dashing the canverse with brushstroke creates unexpected result.

super responsible monitress-cum-sj head back in secondary school days, chuwen!!! seriously miss her after graduation. didnt manage to catch up much during this period of time. but seriously cant wait for the next class gathering to see her. think she's like the person i most wan to see from the class (other than the usual i keep seeing). gotta have a class gathering soon.

thanks for wenni for always reading the blog and anticipating for it. and as well for ur tag. at least i know i have at least 1 active reader.well u too stay pretty.

chenfeng, my online gaming buddy-cum-neighbour. though yet to meet him, think pretty friendly.always giving me items and helping me lvl up. thanks thy help all these while. game is more fun having you around.

my school buddies which includes rj, sm, sm and mz. for some reasons, when relating things about us, we'll be refered to "rj they all". dunno why. but well thanx for always being there and tolerating me. also enaging in those "close to argument" discussions. they do making studying more fun though pple always thought we'll end up killing each other. school life is never gonna be the same with you all. love 'em!

coming down to my home before the exams itself to pass me the candy snack, where more can i say about huiping. well for everything you have done so far. thought u keep complaining i'm always so mean to bully you, wanna say here i really appreciate your existance when i need it the most. though u dun always manage to cheer me, guess it's alritz at the end of it. what i really need is an outlet, and poor you have to stick your ears to the phone all day long. reckon earth doesnt rotate the same fashion without you.
i'm not sure if i can still keep my promise to you, but all i can say now is i had done watever i can.
hope when that day come, it's tears of joy i'll have for you.

finally it's for the one and only, most beloved dumb ass. this is going out for you. thanks for being with me all these while. thanks for whatever you have done. from your school exams question and answer outline to tutoring sessions, seriously there's nothing more i can ask for. though i keep saying "yi que jin zai bu yan zhong", you should know that something are better understand through the nod of the head or smile of the lips. when it's time for words to do the talking, you'll be...shocked? no surprize is more appropriate (this you just have to acknowledge it).
we fought the battle, and we fought it hard. it's time for our retreat now. result will be out only next year. watever the outcome is, dun worry cause you know i'll be strong. not acting the usual style doesnt mean i'll underperform. i'm only taking the first step to wat i want to achieve. so ya dun worry. luv ya!

well it's done. it took me 1hr 25min to finish this entry and man it's long. sowee for those whom i didnt remember to include. but seriously thanks those who have given me the strength i need to pull through this period of time.