it's been a while since i last blog. yes, indeed, quite along while. lots of factors contribute to that. preparation for promos, faced with emotional limbo are reasons for the lack of blogging. recent common testes' grades haven't been able to make me feel better. in fact, quite worse. in the past, such grades would have zilch meaning to me. now everythings seems to have changed.

the confidence that i had erected high above the skyscrapers cramble like jericho's wall. in the midst of debris and rumble, i'm seek. seeking for the soul that was lost to failure. clouded by the dust arise from the crumble, the sight has lost its edge. acknowledging the laceration suffered by the tender skin from the slashes of failure. but trust me, it's always the hardest thing to do. walking out has never been harder. and no one can really help. eventually, as they've always said "there's always a rainbow after the storm", but how long does this storm has to last. not every plant will be able to restand the splattering of the cold, hard raindrops. nor will be able to stand strong against the reckless howling of the wind.

for the storm to clear, and iris to fly across the blue sky, it seems to take aeons.